Anxiety, Depression, Mental Health, Panic Disorder, Random Ramblings, Women's Health

Exercising for Overall Health—Something I Never Thought I’d Write About

I don’t exercise to lose weight. In fact, any time I’ve exercised (or dieted) specifically with weight loss in mind, it was not sustainable. I’m at a point in my life where my physical health, and especially my mental health, are the most important. I exercise for overall health, and I’ve found that every little bit helps.

It’s Never Too Late to Begin Exercising

I subscribe to the HAES (healthy at every size) way of life. I try to eat intuitively, that is to say, when I’m actually hungry (listening to my body’s hunger and satiation cues) and not when I’m bored or stressed. And I exercise my body on purpose.

Now, you don’t know me, but for me to say that I exercise on purpose is huge!

My past work life in a corporate office was sedentary. Outside of that, I hustled during my commutes, and at home looking after a house, a marriage, and three growing kids. I was mostly exhausted.

I’ve never been athletic. I joined gyms and took yoga classes, played softball and bowled, but these activities waned. As such, the benefits were few, if any, and didn’t come close to outweighing the effort. Exercising in general was always a chore.

Until, that is, in August 2021 when I suffered acute, crippling panic and anxiety that lasted for months. I was very sick. Along with medication and psychotherapy, I adopted a daily set routine of waking up and going to bed at a certain time, and getting some form of exercise.

Micro-Improvements From Routine Exercise

I’ll admit that when I started exercising routinely, it was mainly as a mean of distraction. Those who have suffered mental illness know that a lot of time is spent inside your own head. Distraction is good.

I began by taking slow, short walks. Then, my walks got longer and I picked up my pace. On bad weather days, I decided to do gentle yoga, using YouTube for inspiration and guidance. When pandemic restrictions abated, I utilized my building’s fitness room and exercised on the elliptical machine. I alternated days, yoga one day, walking or doing the elliptical the next day.

Soon I began to notice micro-improvements in myself. My mental health improved because I was successfully distracting myself. Also, exercise produces endorphins and serotonin, the “feel good” chemicals.

The improvements to my physical health were harder to detect. They were slow and gradual. For instance, on the days I walk outside, while I used to walk 1 kilometre at a slow pace, I now walk 5–6 kilometres at a brisk pace. I have adapted several different yoga routines into one that I do regularly, adding and adjusting stretches as my body responds to my efforts. Also, while I started on the elliptical on level 1, huffing and puffing and cursing every minute of it, I am now on level 13, I feel great while I’m at it (pride, confidence, etc.), and I look forward to the sweat! This is something I never thought I’d say.

Final Thoughts on Exercising for Overall Health

I have a long way to go before I would call myself fit. Having said that, exercising is now a big part of my overall health. I started off slowly, forcing myself, quite frankly, to move my body. And now, two years later, I’m stronger, have more physical endurance, and my mental health is stable. Believe me when I tell you that I never thought exercise, particularly at the glacial pace at which I started, would help. I’m here to tell you that it has helped. Tremendously. Every little bit helps, and it’s never too late to start.

Feature image by Arek Adeoye on Unsplash.

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Anxiety, Cannabis, Depression, Women's Health

Cannabis Is Legal in Canada – Might It Help Me With My Mental Illness?

So cannabis is finally legal in Canada. YAY! October 17th was a big day for us – as a forward-thinking nation, of course – but also for many of us with mental illness looking to either subsidize our pharma products with cannabis or replace them altogether.

My doctor wasn’t ready to make that assertion, nor was she ready to refer me to someone who would. Thusly, I took the matter into my own hands, doing my own research on cannabis as a treatment option for people with mental illness. And to be completely honest, legalization notwithstanding, I have been experimenting with various strains of cannabis and documenting my experiences.

If you’ve read a few of my blogs, you’ll know that I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression in 2000, but have memories of dealing with anxiety and panic from around the time I entered puberty. Since 2000, I have been on two different prescriptions – both SSRIs (Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors), both effective for a time. I consider myself one of the lucky ones – I’ve only had to use two… some sufferers are on veritable cocktails of pharma medications.

Since the onset of peri-menopause three years ago, I’ve been all over the map with my symptoms. Most recently (the past 9 months), I have really been struggling with anxiety to the point where for the third time since 2000, I was put on a new medication – this time, an SNRI (Serotonin-Norepinephrine Reuptake Inhibitors). (As an aside, I was also diagnosed with pre-hypertension and prescribed a low-dose medication for it). While this new SNRI medication has helped a great deal with the anxiety, it has caused two notable side-effects; brain-zaps and exacerbated tinnitus (ringing/whooshing in the ears – which I’ve had my whole life but would only hear if it was either very quiet, or after being subjected to very loud noise e.g. a concert). The tinnitus is now loud and constant and the brain-zaps are happening several times a day (where before they would happen maybe once a month). NOT GOOD! Also noticed but unconfirmed by my doctor as being related (though I believe it is), my blood pressure is even higher despite the medication that was supposed to help lower it! Both tinnitus and hypertension (high blood pressure) are listed as possible side-effects of SRNIs.

My fear when changing medications again was that I would be faced with the very thing that has happened – side-effects that require further exploration (referral to an ENT (Ear/Nose/Throat) doctor – which could take months – to ensure there is nothing mechanically wrong with my ears) and even worse, more medications – I was told to double the hypertension medication! Neither of these will help the brain-zaps at all.

And so, I’ve come full circle back to the question – might cannabis help me with my mental illness? This last doctor’s visit has solidified my resolve to continue my exploration with cannabis to treat my anxiety (as a first step). Against my doctor’s recommendation, I am going to ween myself off the SNRIs and back onto the SSRIs (my baseline, before side-effects). I am not willing to wait for an ENT to tell me that yes, I have tinnitus and no, there is nothing mechanical going on.  I do NOT want to double the hypertension medication that was supposed to reduce my high blood pressure.

It is my long-range goal/hope that maybe I can ween myself off of all of it. That’s lofty given the last time I went off my medications without doctor’s supervision I ended up in a deep depression that lasted months. Then again – cannabis wasn’t really an option then. It is now. And the best part is that, since legalization, I can now do it out in the open without having to suffer the villainization that cannabis has suffered in the past.

If you are looking to start your exploration into cannabis, try the Strainprint app. I have found it an invaluable source for researching ailments, symptoms and strains, as well as tracking my sessions with cannabis. Strainprint is available in the Google Playstore as well as the App Store. Thank you Humble & Fred Radio for recommending this app and for all the great cannabis-related content you’ve provided.

Anxiety, Cannabis, Depression, Menopause, Mental Health, Women's Health

Can Cannabis Help with My Mental illness?

So cannabis is finally legal in Canada. YAY! October 17th was a big day for us – as a forward-thinking nation, of course – but also for many of us with mental illness looking to either subsidize our pharma products with cannabis, or replace them altogether.

My doctor wasn’t ready to make that assertion nor was she ready to refer me to someone who would. Thusly, I took the matter into my own hands, doing my own research on cannabis as a treatment option for people with mental illness. And to be completely honest, legalization notwithstanding, I have been experimenting with various strains of cannabis and documenting my experiences.

If you’ve read a few of my blogs you’ll know that I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression in 2000, but have memories of dealing with anxiety and panic from around the time I entered puberty. Since 2000, I have been on two different prescriptions – both SSRIs (Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors), both effective for a time. I consider myself one of the lucky ones – I’ve only had to use two… some sufferers are on veritable cocktails of pharma medications.

Since the onset of perimenopause three years ago, I’ve been all over the map with my symptoms. Most recently (the past 9 months), I have really been struggling with anxiety to the point where for the third time since 2000, I was put on a new medication – this time, an SNRI (Serotonin-Norepinephrine Reuptake Inhibitors). (As an aside, I was also diagnosed with pre-hypertension and prescribed a low-dose medication for it). While this new SNRI medication has helped a great deal with the anxiety, it has caused two notable side effects; brain-zaps and exacerbated tinnitus (ringing/whooshing in the ears – which I’ve had my whole life but would only hear if it was either very quiet, or after being subjected to very loud noise e.g. a concert). The tinnitus is now loud and constant and the brain-zaps are happening several times a day (where before they would happen maybe once a month). NOT GOOD! Also noticed but unconfirmed by my doctor as being related (though I believe it is), my blood pressure is even higher despite the medication that was supposed to help lower it! Both tinnitus and hypertension (high blood pressure) are listed as possible side-effects of SRNIs.

My fear when changing medications again was that I would be faced with the very thing that has happened – side-effects that require further exploration (referral to an ENT (Ear/Nose/Throat) doctor – which could take months – to ensure there is nothing mechanically wrong with my ears) and even worse, more medications – I was told to double the hypertension medication! Neither of these will help the brain-zaps at all.

And so, I’ve come full circle back to the question – might cannabis help me with my mental illness? This last doctor’s visit has solidified my resolve to continue my exploration with cannabis to treat my anxiety (as a first step). Against my doctor’s recommendation, I am going to ween myself off the SNRIs and back onto the SSRIs (my baseline, before side effects). I am not willing to wait for an ENT to tell me that yes, I have tinnitus and no, there is nothing mechanical going on.  I do NOT want to double the hypertension medication that was supposed to reduce my high blood pressure.

It is my long-range goal/hope that maybe I can ween myself off of all of it. That’s lofty given the last time I went off my medications without a doctor’s supervision I ended up in a deep depression that lasted months. Then again – cannabis wasn’t really an option then. It is now. And the best part is that, since legalization, I can now do it out in the open without having to suffer the villainization that cannabis has suffered in the past.

If you are looking to start your exploration into cannabis, try the Strainprint app. I have found it an invaluable source for researching ailments, symptoms and strains, as well as tracking my sessions with cannabis. Strainprint is available in the Google Playstore as well as the App Store. Thank you Humble & Fred Radio for recommending this app and for all the great cannabis-related content you’ve provided.