When you don’t notice your anxiety, that’s how you know your anxiety is abating. Does that make sense?
To people with anxiety I’m sure it does. To people wanting to know more about anxiety – it’s like this.
Anxiety disorder is a sneaky bitch and in my experience, comes in three distinct forms.
In my recent post entitled Anxiety Sufferers – Know Thyself, I wrote about my journey with anxiety as it pertains to the come out of nowhere kind of anxiety. This is when your fight-or-flight brain chemistry kicks in for no damned good reason and you’re left panting and sweating and breathing hard and essentially scared out of your wits.
The second kind is somewhat like the first type. You are in a constant state of unease – like waiting for the shoe to drop when there’s nothing really going on. You can’t relax. You’re angst-y and agitated but you don’t know why.
The third kind is trigger-based. Easier to understand as it is associated with something that happens. Everybody has this but, for anxiety disorder sufferers it is very pronounced.
Normal person: Crap! I can’t believe that happened.
Me: THE SKY IS FALLING!!
My recent struggles have been with these last two. Bouts of the sky is falling with general unease as the baseline. This, of course, is NOT okay and so, following my adage of know thyself, I sought medical attention. And, there’s no overnight remedy to this. These symptoms worsen over time and so, it takes time to encourage them to abate.
My doctor: So, how’s your anxiety?
Me: I haven’t noticed it!
My doctor and me together: THAT’S FANTASTIC!
This time, it’s taken seven months (from the tipping point) of doctor’s visits, therapy sessions, repeated exposure to positivity, (lots of) rest, and two drug modification to achieve this plateau. I’m grateful! And yet, the journey continues. Like I said, anxiety disorder is a bitch.